Saturday, May 23, 2009

A New Post

Hello again everyone. Yes, I haven't updated in quite a while. I guess its because the stuff I have to say is pretty much the same. I feel nauseated, I have lots of digestive troubles and discomforts, and I'm so tired from the continues around me. My darling son grows and learns and does amazing new stuff (he can count to 10 and he understands 1, 2, and 3) and although he is high energy and I am low energy, we manage to have quite a lot of fun together. My dear husband has had to pick up more and more household chores because I can't do it all. This is a bit depressing, and I feel (again) robbed by cancer. This time, of the ability to care for my family. Right now my indefatigable Mom is here. She's once again taking care of Captain Adorable and the rest of us. She's once again totally indispensable. I don't know what I will do without her. I will try to write more later. First I have to think of something to talk about.

Saturday, May 9, 2009

Nausea and Vomiting

For the last several days I have been plagued by nausea and vomiting. In fact, on Thursday I ate and drank nothing because everything came back up. On Friday, in between a few bouts of vomiting, I was able to eat a (small) organic peach and some bites of grilled potato. I did drink several cups of tea and a couple glasses of lemonade, which was good because my pee had become worrisomely dark... the anti-nausea drugs don't seem to help me this week

This morning my stomach hurts. I suppose it is tired from all that vomiting. I have eaten today--Captain Obvious got me a bagel from Einstein Brothers. I did feel like puking earlier and have been having the horrible empty stomach burps that sometimes bring a wave of nausea to fruition, but so far have avoided it. I still feel tired and slow and I am looking forward to a day of not much.

We are going to a wildlife refuge with my FIL and step-MIL and their son today, so we are going to have some fun. :) Relxed, lazy fun. Tonight we are all going out to dinner to celebrate Mother's Day a day early. I wonder if I still fit either of my pretty dresses.

Wednesday, May 6, 2009

Trials and Triumphs

It has been a while since I posted, mostly because it seems I do not have anything new to say. Perhaps it would be new to the reader, but to me it feels like the same thing...

I have been dealing pretty well with not having my mom here as long as usual, but it has been hard and I have been exhausted. On top of the exhaustion from chemo, I am also sick with some sort of GI trouble and (sorry if this is TMI) have been pooping very frequently. I also have an unhappy tummy, so do not have much appetite, nor any desire to cook food. In fact, I've been letting all the chores go. The only thing I do anymore is take care of Captain Adorable, and even that is more than I can handle sometimes...

Thank goodness my darling husband has been stepping in where I've been lacking. He's been cooking, doing laundry (I was not aware he knew the location of the washer and dryer), planting plants outside on the deck and in the yard, taking care of Captain Adorable, and letting me lie in bed. This morning I finally did the dishes, which had been piling up in the sink since Sunday. Ugh I am such a bad housekeeper lately. I mean, if I am a SAHM, then at least let me be good at my job, right? But since my mom left I am useless. No dishes, barely any cooking, and no laundry.

For the last two days, however, some very kind people have been dropping off ready-made (WARM!) meals for us. I am astounded by their kindness and very happy about the delicious food. The potato soup last night in particular was delicious and perfect for me (a soup lover), after an afternoon of vomiting.

On the other hand, Captain Adorable is wonderful and I love hanging out with him. His language is improving all the time, and we have some interesting conversations. He loves music, knows about half the alphabet now, and loves to sing songs and read books. He also likes doing yoga, climbing on his mama, and talking about his "dream boat" before he goes to sleep at night. He is fun to go on walks with as long as you take the stroller along for those inevitable moments when he just won't keep up or wants to ride for a while. He is developing a possessive streak, and does not want to share at all right now, but I am sure we will move through this with time and patience.