Wednesday, May 6, 2009

Trials and Triumphs

It has been a while since I posted, mostly because it seems I do not have anything new to say. Perhaps it would be new to the reader, but to me it feels like the same thing...

I have been dealing pretty well with not having my mom here as long as usual, but it has been hard and I have been exhausted. On top of the exhaustion from chemo, I am also sick with some sort of GI trouble and (sorry if this is TMI) have been pooping very frequently. I also have an unhappy tummy, so do not have much appetite, nor any desire to cook food. In fact, I've been letting all the chores go. The only thing I do anymore is take care of Captain Adorable, and even that is more than I can handle sometimes...

Thank goodness my darling husband has been stepping in where I've been lacking. He's been cooking, doing laundry (I was not aware he knew the location of the washer and dryer), planting plants outside on the deck and in the yard, taking care of Captain Adorable, and letting me lie in bed. This morning I finally did the dishes, which had been piling up in the sink since Sunday. Ugh I am such a bad housekeeper lately. I mean, if I am a SAHM, then at least let me be good at my job, right? But since my mom left I am useless. No dishes, barely any cooking, and no laundry.

For the last two days, however, some very kind people have been dropping off ready-made (WARM!) meals for us. I am astounded by their kindness and very happy about the delicious food. The potato soup last night in particular was delicious and perfect for me (a soup lover), after an afternoon of vomiting.

On the other hand, Captain Adorable is wonderful and I love hanging out with him. His language is improving all the time, and we have some interesting conversations. He loves music, knows about half the alphabet now, and loves to sing songs and read books. He also likes doing yoga, climbing on his mama, and talking about his "dream boat" before he goes to sleep at night. He is fun to go on walks with as long as you take the stroller along for those inevitable moments when he just won't keep up or wants to ride for a while. He is developing a possessive streak, and does not want to share at all right now, but I am sure we will move through this with time and patience.

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

Just wanted to say that you should feel NO GUILT for not doing housework. I am in awe that you can care for your son while you are feeling so ill, and it seems to me that taking care of him and taking care of your self are the only jobs you should worry about right now.

Wishing you health!

PS Found your blog via MDC