Monday, April 6, 2009

Sad and Unmotivated

So, as you may have noticed in the last couple posts, although my body feels much better than in the first two chemo sessions, I am feeling very sad. I have no motivation. I am wrung out. I could probably go clean up the kitchen, maybe even make some of those crackers Captain Adorable likes so much, but I just don't want to. It is nice outside, temperature wise, but it has been raining, so I am not even interested in trying out the bike Captain Obvious fixed up for me. All I want to do is just sit here on the couch and play on my computer. Total waste of time. But I am just not motivated for anything else. It all seems like so much hassle. I should probably set a goal for myself so I get something accomplished today, but even taking a shower seems like a big hassle for nothing...

Fortunately my mom is here to be with Captain Adorable. I don't know what I will do when she cannot come any more.

4 comments:

mamefati said...

wish i could come and hang with ya..thinking of you from my couch!
Love to you momma!

Michelle said...

I'm sorry to hear you're feeling down - keep letting your docs know how you're feeling so that you can enjoy the most of this time with your Captains.

Michelle said...

I'm sorry to hear you're feeling down - keep talking to your doctors so that you can enjoy the most of this time with your Captains.

Anonymous said...

A little piece about Japan to distract you: http://regex.info/blog/2008-06-28/851

Start with really small goals, like "eat a piece of fruit", "hug Captain Adorable", and "tell Mom how much I love her". :-)

I hope you are already feeling much better!