Thursday, April 7, 2011

What I Wanted To Hear!

Had another CT scan yesterday. I have only the preliminary report so far, but it shows no new cancer! So, life moves on.

I've been thinking a lot about how incredibly blessed/lucky I am to have such an unusual cancer. How my weirdness, the oddity of my disease, and my access to lots of good, smart doctors and high tech medical equipment and facilities, has led to a balance between me and my cancer (which is also me, really). I never thought I'd make it to this point. I thought I'd be dead by now. In fact, I started out this blog questioning whether I should even start chemo because I didn't know if the pay off would be worth it in the end. And really, the only reason that it did pay off for me is because I am odd. I am one of a very small percentage of people who gets to live this story.

I am so astounded and amazed to be alive, to have the responsibility of the future back.


Anonymous said...

Very very cool. You are indeed blessed. The future is yours.
Debbie from Mtl.

Diana said...

And we are so, so, SO tearfully happy and relieved that we get to live it with you. Because we love you and because the world is a better place with you in it.

mamefati said...

You are soooooo amazing! I am grateful to be able to follow your journey. Lots of Love!

alexis224 said...

I'm so glad you're weird too. ;-) I love that you said you're glad to have "the responsibility of the future back." Bless you.
So I went to an author lecture/reading the other night, and I thought of you. You must read this book! (well I haven't read it myself yet, but the discussion was wonderful so I look forward to starting the book). It's called "The Immortal Life of Henrietta Lacks" by Rebecca Skloot. Especially because you've been treated at Johns Hopkins, but I recommend it to you for many reasons!
Big hugs.

Doug McCaughan said...

I'm very happy for you!