If you've been reading my posts, maybe you've noticed that ever since I finished chemo, I have been experiencing strong emotions. I feel fear and sorrow the most, but I also feel angry. Maybe it is because during chemo all I could do was hold myself together with enough determination to make it through chemo. Maybe the fact that I STILL DON'T HAVE ANY ANSWERS to my questions about my life expectancy is what is getting me down.
Maybe I will write about my fear and sorrow and anger. Maybe I won't. I don't like these emotions and I do not view them as helpful and perhaps they are even counter to my best interests.