Tuesday, January 5, 2010

I Gonna Miss You

As I was eating my last few bites of dinner (stir-fried tofu, wilted spinach with garlic, and baked sweet potato fries with cumin), Captain Adorable insisted on climbing into my lap. He asked if tomorrow is his birthday and I said yes. He asked if after that I was going to go to the doctor. I said yes, and explained that I would have surgery. He said, "I gonna miss you," and wrapped his arms around my neck.

I was filling with an urge to cry but the joy of love won over and I was filled with love instead. I replied that I would miss him too. My mom spoke up and reminded us both that he can and will come visit me in the hospital. We were both comforted by that. Later, as I held him close to me while he fell asleep (Shame on those who choose CIO!), I told him that I love him all the time, whether I am with him or not. Like the moon, which is always there, even when we can't see it, I love him all the time, even when we are not together.

My child knocks me out. (I know every parent is filled with admiration for her/his child, but...) I am amazed at how this young child can understand and express emotion.

I love him so much. And me-oh-my how I will miss him.

6 comments:

Adam and Olivia said...

You two are amazing parents and you are raising one beautiful child. Happy Birthday to your lovely boy!

Sadie & Silas said...

Hang in there mama! I m pulling for you. Be well. An MDC mama.

Anonymous said...

You totally ROCK. You are STRONG and you always carry on with whatever it is you need to do. My dad had the same operation as you are having - mind you he is much older (75) and today yes today he is 80 and alive and kicking as you will be - FIGHT THE FIGHT cause CANCER SUCKS!

alexis224 said...

Captain Adorable knocks me out too. What a precious moment. Happy birthday little guy!

Carrie said...

best wishes for you mama. my thoughts and prayers are with you and your captains.

mamefati said...

We are sending you LOVE on MDC!!!!